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Friday, February 12, 2010
What happens to a person when he hasn't slept for more than 4 hours for past 5 days? Disease and illness will find its way up his backdoor. I'm referring to it as a metaphor, of course, I'm not trying to say that my arse is starting to rot.I have thought that starting life as a Secondary 4 would mean lesser commitment to extra curriculum activities and more attention on the classroom. However, that is not to be the case, sadly enough. Being roped in by Ms Mazlinda into Creative Circle all of a sudden and given major tasks despite the fact that I've just joined, assures that what available time is used on schoolwork and CCAs. Whatever amount of time left, is spent tossing and turning in bed from insomnia due to a broken sleep pattern. Nevertheless, it still has been an eye-opener for me, being able to interview the school's invited guests on their opinions of our school and the 'Metamorphosis' concert. I just wished that the MP wouldn't lean so close when talking though...
...Peering into the body of clear water, what is that reflected beyond the stars?
What is this unexplained feeling, lost among a sea of stars, buried in a sky of clouds? Or could it be that too much inner gazing could be detrimental to a person's mind? Perhaps I may be reading too much into it and all of these just stems from exhaustion, that's all.
And the feeling I'm talking about is...? This, you may be asking. But the truth is that I can only recognise the elements attached to it, and not the exact problem. What is it that makes you exert yourself during exercise to your breaking point and then think afterwards, "I'm just letting off steam." ? What is it that makes you think of sinister and suspicious thoughts all of a sudden when they were unknown to you merely a year ago? Everything feels and seems so empty. Well, I'll just have to continue looking, with eyes dilated with images of a torn horizon.
Haha, I'm beginning to realise that what I'm writing on my blog is most probably not understood by most. Sorry, my bad. It's always like this, I write something here, wishing to express my thoughts, and it definitely will wind up into something cryptic. Maybe it's because the heart is much too saturated in guilt and shame to fully say anything at all.
Can you ever get lost in a maze which you've designed and built by yourself? Are you able to retrace the route? If so, can someone please give me the map? Being lost in my own thoughts has been nothing but common recently. Absent-mindedly walking into oncoming traffic and would have been ploughed over if not for the fortunate fact that the shouts of good friends Ivan and Frederick stopping me in my tracks. Next, how about handing in a Math exercise on Matrices to Mr Edward? How did I manage to see him as Mrs Lee? I am so baffled. I even gave Alex my Chemistry notebook when he asked for the Pure Geography notebook. Apart from being lost, I am tired. Exhausted from walking around in circles, committing mistakes I never would have even come close to within a mile in the past. Therefore it forms a resolution that I need to find the exit, and quick. Because... because night is falling and the funfair is about to lock its gates. Who knows when it will be unlocked again.
Well, seems like I'll just have to continue looking. Wish me luck.
Argh, they cancelled the Chinese Singing Competition for this year. Just when I was so looking forward to it... as a contestant. Yes, yes... LAUGH, laugh some more. Even I myself find it funny, especially when I recall the previous year when I'd went to the competition without bringing music. Instead, I was forced and 'coerced' into joining the Prose Recital Competition for Mother Tongue week. Thankfully, I was able to skip it. On Wednesday, when I was supposed to be either present for GEMs or the competition, I was away at the Marina Barrage. Flying kites.
The irony.
The Lunar New Year is coming, and one severely significant question lies in minds of us all...
How much are you expecting for your ang pao money this year?
For me, I'm still thinking about whether I want to spend it or save it. Hehe, Temptation looks gorgeous in that low-cut black gown tonight...
'Financial worries' aside, one thing about the Chinese New Year is that we get to visit family and friends during this period, many of which I probably only see once in a while. It is definitely a celebrative season I will enjoy.
That being said, if one wants to enjoy a holiday, it will be better enjoyed with a fresh mind. I'm off to recharge back my lost hours and hopefully chase away this impending cold. To the rest of you, A Happy Lunar New Year, and may prosperity prosper.
