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Sunday, March 29, 2009
Spent my whole day doing homework. The result of touching no papers for Friday and Saturday, hah. Hmm, the gambling meet I had yesterday ago was great! Uh, I mean the birthday meet, sorry. Full of cards in the house, birthday cards, UNO cards, pok- opps, nothing, nothing...
Had lots of fun on that day. Many thanks to all my friends for coming! Late now, gotta go, this's just a short update.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Today, feels kind of magenta. I know it's weird to describe things in colour in a seemingly unlinking way, but with my birthday gathering just today and so many things happening, this purplish-red colour has been filling my mind. Alright, enough with those freak ideologies...Yesterday has been such a whirlwind of events, ran a long distance in the morning's P.E Lesson, and I got my report slip back. But these are just materialistic, it is interaction between people and friends that brings the greatest joy.
Hmm, I wonder if my home can accomodate the big amount of people coming today. Can't wait! This is the first time I'm holding such a big birthday party, so naturally I will be very ecstatic about having so many people celebrating my birthday together with me. However, today isn't my real birthdate though. If only schedules would allow, my birthday is on April's 1st. Today's only March 28th. Oh well, saves me the trouble of friends coming up to my door and saying 'happy April Fool's day' instead of 'Happy Birthday'.
I rarely rise from bed so early without any specific reason. So getting up at 8am today does leave a certain effect. Which gives rise to another piece of prose writing...
The seconds that pass after your departure...
If there was anything I could do to make you stay,
I would do anything, all you have to do is say.
But it was not to be,
On that chilly early spring night,
As the view of your back gradually disappears from my sight.
When we were saying our goodbyes,
All my words of saying I'll be fine were only lies.
Without you around, life is devoid of all meaning,
My emotions were all thrown on the ground, reeling.
My smiles during that fateful farewell,
Were only a poor substitution for my locked up protests in that pitiful cell.
Do you feel the same way?
Is it that necessity
Has set this inhumane destiny?
I wondered if time could really heal all wounds,
But every second that ticks by repeats those pain by so many rounds.
Hurtful as it is, I would rather time stop where it is,
Because it is this pain,
The only thing that keeps me sane...
~End
Goodbye, and see you...
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
It has been a long period of time since... It was only recently I've got time to do anything else other than homework. As a result, a lot of things have been neglected, a lot of catching up on to do...A busy week, that's for sure. But what's more important is what I've learnt during this particular week that could be a turning point. It's nothing much special actually, but the significance hit me hard, it was as if standing on top of an earthquake epicentre. Humans never really count their blessings when it gets added to their list of fortunes continuously. Humans never really count their blessings...until it starts getting subtracted. I found myself to never really have appreciated the people around me, well, I laugh and smile with them as usual, but deep down, my mind was insisting on treating them as people I'm supposed to communicate with, and I'm also supposed to have fun and laugh together with them. Note the use of 'supposed'. I never really thought about them as, well...real people. Sounds weird, I don't know how to put it across without sounding blunt. Might as well leave it at that then...To all my friends, please don't feel offended, I still like you all. -Smiles gently-
This isn't the first time people have commented about me not smiling enough, but today a friend told me about it again. And once again, this also hit me hard. The irony of it being, I've told people before to live life hapilly, but what about myself? I've never really thought about that... It's like, I'm smiling more nowadays, but it's sort of forced, I don't feel comfortable doing it. Perhaps I was born not to be able to produce a genuine smile. Wonder if that day ever comes when that smile emerges? I have no idea why I am becoming so aware of these stuff recently. They've been there all along, thrown straight into my face, but I've chose to ignore them and thus chose to degrade the quality of my life. It's like everything in my vision has became sharper and clearer...
That aside... Well, finally I'm going to watch one of William Shakespeare's play this coming 31st March at the Esplanade, can't wait. Even though this is the first time I'm watching one of his plays, I was already an avid fan of him from the past. Partially because I share the same name 'William' as him. Haha, just kidding.
Hmm, my birthday's coming up, on the first of April (It's April Fool's Day, I know, don't rub it in.) and I still haven't decided what to do on that day... Perhaps I'll think harder. ^^
Just saw my class photo for this year! The tie didn't look half bad, hmm...lol.
Currently writing an essay,
...Humans may have learnt to count in complex algorithms and formulas, but they've never really bothered about counting the amount of people who're important to them.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
I finished two poems today. Man, my appetite for writing is just so voracious at the moment. Probably because the rhythm of the raindrops stirred something deep within me... First things first, presenting to you: Your Gallant Knight Under the Moonlight Chandelier...I see the glimmer of my armour reflecting off the teardrop at the corner of your longing eyes,
Beneath the helmet I donned, your knight silently cries.
On my return journey I reminisce,
Our parting moment, and that kiss,
Glad to have outswum in battle death's fins.
Every enemy downed in battle is another piece of that beautiful painting put together,
Soft brushstrokes and careful drawing forming that glamourous chandelier.
The Lady of the Moon shall preside over our reunion,
I return to the courtyard which is now barren.
But true to your promise you came,
Through my tear-filled eyes your face I quietly frame.
Under the luminousity of the gentle moonlight,
Embraced and held each other tight,
That standstill moment, into the tranquil night sky my feelings take flight.
This is the lady and her gallant knight.
As the Moonlight Chandelier smiles knowingly from above,
Depicted here is the symbol of their true love...
~By William.
I'm not posting the second one. That's personal. ^_~
Sigh, I had to wake up slightly earlier than usual to go to school for a meeting regarding the Republic Polytechnic (RP) Scientific Thinking Programme. First thing in the morning and there's already two people bothering me with their SMSes...*yawn*.
Well, at least my Teacher-in-charge, Ms Ng treated us to MacDonalds after the meeting, something to rejoice at for most people. But, I don't really adore Mac.
I went home to start on my homework, whilst being bombarded by Faris with SMSes all the while. He's been ranting on about a very boring topic recently... Don't tell him I said this. But seriously, I think he's getting himself too involved with love and that kinda stuff...
I really can literally bawl at the amount of homework I actually have. And the fact that I'm having a 3-day camp later this week is an added pressure point. Just doing literature is tedious enough already... "Mustn't complain, it is necessary." *sigh*
At least I took some time off to relax, wrote poems in the morning, played video games in the evening. But now I'm feeling very tired but I still got to push on with the night's allocated "Homework Time Slot".
I think I've got to set aside some time to get my hair cut, it's long enough to tickle my eyes already. But I look like sh*t everytime I cut my hair. Enough crap for now, I'm going for dinner, what will humans ever do without good food...?
*William strolls under the tree, away from sight, through the fluttering leaves piled high on the melancholic forest undergrowth...*
Monday, March 16, 2009
Another rainy day... Hardly the reason why I'm feeling so bored right now, perhaps it's just me being lazy... Lol, a whole stack of homework waiting to be done and it's still in it's pure original form, untouched. Todays bears no resemblance to yesterday, but people say today is different from yesterday, each day holds a new chapter. I still prefer yesterday though, the most memorable thing was going to the Suntec Convention Hall for the IT Show, I even bought myself a new PC. Which is, the one I'm using now. Spent hours into the night assembling it yesterday, finally got it working! Haha. I also got a new phone yesterday, another Sony Ericsson...Today's events is nothing...It's boring...Mundane...
You still wanna read on? Fine.
Woke up at nine and chatted with Faris on SMS until around three. Played NFS Prostreet for a while, 2hrs actually, and then I came to here to change my blogskin (Yes AGAIN) and to post a new entry. I doubt I'll be changing it anytime soon again though, this one is really representative of the person I am. Representative in what ways? I don't know, you don't ask. LOL. That's it. Yup, that's it for my day.
But anyway, about the poem I was talking about, at least I still didn't fail on that. However, it is quite...sub-standard. I mean, like, what do you expect from a 15-year-old-kid who just writes for fun...?
Guarding over the telephone, Your voice...
You whispered into my ear that you would wait for me,
I smiled and believed that what you said wasn't phony.
For many gruelling years I hung on to that fading warmth of that promise,
Like how rosemary leaf clings onto the stem structure axis.
Just so that I can hear you call my name one more time,
But the fire within has really gone out this time.
As I lingered around the telephone thinking of the times we chatted,
Can't help but think my feelings are being cheated,
Every speech I left into your voicemail is every tear dropped,
Every call unanswered is a contribution to our barrier with one more rock.
That whisper you said into my ear many years ago always comes back to haunt me,
Even when I'm sleeping I cannot loosen,
I look out the window with a face that's ashened,
And I see...
The fluttering leaves, my feelings.
The flowing grass, my affection...
P.S. By the way, just in case anyone can't find my tagboard and such due to the new layout, it's to your right (Don't tilt your head right, now.) Just find the page scroller at the bottom of this page. (Edit:Fixed)
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Nice blogskin, huh? Just changed it today, felt that it suits me quite well, despite its plainness. But that doesn't matter, I guess. It has an air of elegance surrounding it,just that piano keyboard alone exudes an aura of feelings. Phew, I didn't just change the blogskin today... It's been a long time since I got involved in HTML coding, and even the proper adding of '' tags had me gasping for breath, haha. Just got the basics settled and solidified the knowledge this morning. And, the tagboard just found its way in.
Finished lunch in a hurry in the afternoon in order to make it on time for my basketball meet. I like to be punctual, being late portrays all kinds of undesirable character in you. It's been 2 weeks since I last played basketball and obviously, my skills seriously needed some brushing up on. It was still very enjoyable nonetheless. My good friend, SQ, pointed out to me something which I never really took notice of, he said that I always get tired easily when playing basketball because I like to waste energy unneccesarily. He commented that I liked to rush like a 'mad dog' in the early stages of the game, which left me exhausted for the rest of the match. True, I was scoring well at first, after that, well...lol. We played for about an hour or so, and it started to rain! First a slight drizzle, which accelerated to a relentless downpour in less than 10 minutes! Me and my friends took shelter under a block of flats where a vending machine was within a stone throw distance's away (reason is obvious, duh.) Chang Rong bought two canned drinks!!! That fat--...forget it, haha.
We decided that we should go on home already, for basketball to happen in the rest of the afternoon was near-impossible, no one wants to fall sick during the March holidays and deprive themselves of precious leisure time. As for the highlight of today...we ran home in the heavy rain! It was a great bbonding session for us all. I can't describe the feeling...it's quite a simple and childish thing actually, grown teenagers running around trying their best to get home while getting wet at the same time. There was a lot of laughter and jokes (mostly from Yours Truely) to dispel the dull mood we've all got during that time from the dark and intimidating skies, cold environment. Really something to strengthen our ties as one. Ooo look, I've even got some pictures I snapped when we were under shelter. Highlight: Chang Rong was running across the road! The speed was commendable for someone his size! (plus weight :P).
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It was already evening time when I reached home. Spent the rest of my day reading, listening to music, watching TV. Man the book I was reading was quite disturbing, I should say. It's about this young guy named Eric who gets a kick out of killing things, including humans. Killed his mother and stepfather in cold blood. However, there's lots of life lessons to be learnt in a book like this, not the kill-for-kicks part of course. It shows how life can sometimes drive people to their wit's ends, or towards the darker corners of the mind, even teenagers are not spared such cruelty known as fate. Especially when nearing the end of the book, Eric finally finds someone he truely loves, someone who could help him change his ways. But fate would not allow...The girl died by drowning when Eric failed to save her.
Gosh, it's late into the night, better be signing off soon, I need my sleep. My eyebags are starting to become obvious to the point that they actually make me look like an old uncle already. I was starting on a new love poem this evening though, don't ask me why, it's a literary hobby. Perhaps I can post it tomorrow or whenever I can find the time to post again. I just get inspirations for this kinda things sometimes... See you.
Finished lunch in a hurry in the afternoon in order to make it on time for my basketball meet. I like to be punctual, being late portrays all kinds of undesirable character in you. It's been 2 weeks since I last played basketball and obviously, my skills seriously needed some brushing up on. It was still very enjoyable nonetheless. My good friend, SQ, pointed out to me something which I never really took notice of, he said that I always get tired easily when playing basketball because I like to waste energy unneccesarily. He commented that I liked to rush like a 'mad dog' in the early stages of the game, which left me exhausted for the rest of the match. True, I was scoring well at first, after that, well...lol. We played for about an hour or so, and it started to rain! First a slight drizzle, which accelerated to a relentless downpour in less than 10 minutes! Me and my friends took shelter under a block of flats where a vending machine was within a stone throw distance's away (reason is obvious, duh.) Chang Rong bought two canned drinks!!! That fat--...forget it, haha.
We decided that we should go on home already, for basketball to happen in the rest of the afternoon was near-impossible, no one wants to fall sick during the March holidays and deprive themselves of precious leisure time. As for the highlight of today...we ran home in the heavy rain! It was a great bbonding session for us all. I can't describe the feeling...it's quite a simple and childish thing actually, grown teenagers running around trying their best to get home while getting wet at the same time. There was a lot of laughter and jokes (mostly from Yours Truely) to dispel the dull mood we've all got during that time from the dark and intimidating skies, cold environment. Really something to strengthen our ties as one. Ooo look, I've even got some pictures I snapped when we were under shelter. Highlight: Chang Rong was running across the road! The speed was commendable for someone his size! (plus weight :P).
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It was already evening time when I reached home. Spent the rest of my day reading, listening to music, watching TV. Man the book I was reading was quite disturbing, I should say. It's about this young guy named Eric who gets a kick out of killing things, including humans. Killed his mother and stepfather in cold blood. However, there's lots of life lessons to be learnt in a book like this, not the kill-for-kicks part of course. It shows how life can sometimes drive people to their wit's ends, or towards the darker corners of the mind, even teenagers are not spared such cruelty known as fate. Especially when nearing the end of the book, Eric finally finds someone he truely loves, someone who could help him change his ways. But fate would not allow...The girl died by drowning when Eric failed to save her.
Gosh, it's late into the night, better be signing off soon, I need my sleep. My eyebags are starting to become obvious to the point that they actually make me look like an old uncle already. I was starting on a new love poem this evening though, don't ask me why, it's a literary hobby. Perhaps I can post it tomorrow or whenever I can find the time to post again. I just get inspirations for this kinda things sometimes... See you.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Today's Friday, meaning lots of spare time to spend on writing (and starting) a blog. Firstly, I don't want anyone to associate the blog name with deja vu, that's...ah whatever. Why did I choose this name then? Well, I'm not too sure myself, but being someone who listens to music a lot passionately, sometimes I feel certain songs remind me of some memories, hence the name. Ah, I think my previous blog (which is as of now,dead) was also started on a Friday. Coincidence? No, the problem lies with time. *Sigh*Hmm, today wasn't an ordinary Friday though, today was EVG's Sports Day. Started the morning with a mass physical training, meaning, the whole school was exercising together, nothing much really. I'm starting to feel I'm turning into someone very boring...haha. Real enjoyment in life does not come by easy you know... But I'm trying my best to make the most out of it.
Term 1 Common Tests had just come and go, as for the results, I would say that it would have to do for now. It isn't too good. HOWEVER though, this term showed a miraculous increment in my math marks, lol. Now that it is over, I do hope I get to enjoy life more... Who hasn't heard of all those sayings about living life to its fullest? "Life is short, don't waste it", and such... Really, I hope so. That's why I'm going out for some exercise later, plus a game of basketball with my friends tomorrow. Oh c'mon...it's a Saturday. ^_~
Sigh, before I turn this into an essay, I guess I better stop wrting. After all this is only the first post. Hmm, I think I've got to find some time to change the blog skin too, this default one given by BS is ok...but not quite unique.
Signing off,
William.
